[And Sei can feel it, feel that pure murderous intent because it sings through his veins, all fight-or-flight, and for a moment his eyes light up, brilliant unearthly blue to match Will's gold--
and then it's gone. No, no, no.]
...I never wanted...I never wanted anything. Not this. Not to inherit an eons old grudgematch or end anything or--[His voices rises and cracks with panic and the voices in his head are suddenly quiet but it's like he can fucking hear Will's and he's terrified that control will snap, he's had nothing to live for and nothing good has ever happened to him but he doesn't want to die, he wants to live and keep living and--]
It's--it's all stupid and fucked up and disgusting and it's beautiful I can't break it I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have come here, I shouldn't have said anything, I had to know, I didn't...
[It all makes sense now, and Sei's knees buckle some under him as he sags against the door frame. He was dealing alright with the Nephilim idea but this? This is too much for him to handle after the day he's had.]
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and then it's gone. No, no, no.]
...I never wanted...I never wanted anything. Not this. Not to inherit an eons old grudgematch or end anything or--[His voices rises and cracks with panic and the voices in his head are suddenly quiet but it's like he can fucking hear Will's and he's terrified that control will snap, he's had nothing to live for and nothing good has ever happened to him but he doesn't want to die, he wants to live and keep living and--]
It's--it's all stupid and fucked up and disgusting and it's beautiful I can't break it I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have come here, I shouldn't have said anything, I had to know, I didn't...
[It all makes sense now, and Sei's knees buckle some under him as he sags against the door frame. He was dealing alright with the Nephilim idea but this? This is too much for him to handle after the day he's had.]